Trilobite

Trilobite is an arthropodologist's delight:
many bizarre creatures; no two alike.

four fragments and “Avalon Street”

Kat Dubois

I’m thinking as if in transmission

—c can live with this green   


seeing              I’ve slept with

stab-stitched   detachment so


I write                           poems

(

like a habit                         

)

can be understood as every rooted thing


turning a strange moral tic.

Is presence                         

(

)

currency

and awareness of a buzz

I can’t stop writing the      syntax of? 


Let me ask             again.


And do I swoon?

such pandering to antiquity.


the symbol of which           the curl of many a thing I sought

thought

then a phobia:


. . . and the bodies moved into

the names for 

and always, too 

                                             for resolution, 

that sometimes subject                  

                                             and object

                                                         the poetic imperative

 

                        (

but why bother

                        )

if  

diagnosis is     but

a spatial distance


My home brims. 

How strange it is    

(


         “word,” I first wrote

)

to my

secondhand    danger 


(

yarrow-pressed


paper

)

in anger

curiosity


the force of forgetting

at the level of our own

bodies          

to wood wind.


and we are left with

the words

continued

                                 the larches


                                 beside the river

                                 of our undoing

AVALON STREET

For Brendan Allen

They always return to us,

years later or more on some


corner between this line and 

the next; given away by certain 


skews of light, yellowing the underbelly

or perhaps staining strange windows


with images familiar despite the dust

distance leaves on our minds. In this city, 


two adjacent pedestals mourn the

memory of monuments now defunct.


How could we have known any better?


*


Our time-bought tonics brought clarity

to facts whose mulling over required


safe distance but no concrete particulars

and now we refuse to be abolished by 


chance. At day’s end they won’t find us 

near ground swinging from the shoe-


strings of our has-beens but higher up—

branched in a tree of our own making. 


You catch a ray of light with your mirror

and ever-present preparedness; cup 


history between the palms of your hands

while I watch without trying 


too hard to keep hold.